unleashed freedom

:)

2010-11-29T13:22:00.001+05:30

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grossglockner or crazy climb ahoy

2010-10-29T14:58:00.002+05:30

well...bit of a background. we[me and my lovely girlfriend] cycled on the most broken down cycles u can imagine or cant [imagine] :) i guess the salesman confused me ,he smiled all the time,that does usually confuse me.i also use the word salesman v v loosely. he was a turkish chap at the flee market.and when i told him that we were going to cycle 1300-1500 kms and would this cycle[ and i pointed to the cycle] be able to do it. he looked thoughtful for a bit, the thought must have been...ah...one of ''those'' chaps...yeah..ofcourse,it can do it[ to be corrected translated to- mental chaps]

the whole trip was about 1300 kms which i shall write about a bit later. this is only about grossglockner. austrias tallest mountain. we did not exactly cycled but mostly heaved it past as our cycles did break down and spectacularly at that. 3 different cyclists tried to help us but nodded gravely and said a few words. i understood "catastrophe " "ridiculous",[said with much enthusiasm at that],'mental' HA HA HA. all in vain.cause i was cycling or pushing or clawing no matter what. saw al the things u chaps mentioned. the crazzzzy stilts to hold up what looked like a wall and turned out to be some sort of sadistic Austrian joke which they call " road ". just the night before we went up this mountain, a British couple had told us that we were mental to do it.he said those who they saw has good bikes, no luggage and gave us a list of other short comings out bikes and clothes had[ didnt have the best 'warm' clothing i realized later on :)] esp cause our bikes were in rather bad condition, mine especially,cause the spokes had broken[and were thankfully sort of repaired,thanks to a very kind old man], the tires bust[and after the fisrt puncture,we found to my deep loss of words that the tire had for ''extra'' support, tissue paper lined inside the tire...to probably wipe the inner tube clean every time it did something dirty... :P ] and i had sort of gotten them to work again,with much difficulty.the back tire moved like beyonse's backside, only a lot less sexy and a lot more effort on my part. after a few hrs of cycling.and the relentlessness of the incline,my girlfriend, Helen was getting v tired as well and i did what silly and so called chivalrous men do.i took her bag as well[18 kgs plus my bag which was about 22 or so]and put it on top of mine.burn baby burn hehehe we mostly pushed the bikes as it was impossible to cycle on them.my back brakes were also holding the rather bootalicious prone back tire. so i just took them off :)[ the brakes, not the tire] .was it sunny and nice and warm...yes...in the Caribbeans though. here it just RAINEEEEED and a LOOOOOOOOT of wind[ enough at times to literally blow u off,my helmet blew off at one point and helens too, and we had to go down some distance to get her helmet] and later on snow tried to show us how foolish we were. but press on we did. reaching the top past 8 pm ( we had spent over 3 hrs trying to fix the bicycle spokes with the helpful people giving us encouraging comments that i had written of earlier)

too cold to feel any colder, we cycled down in pitch dark[ and that was in a way a good thing, cause if we had seen how steep it was, we would not have done it, as the saying goes, ignorance is bliss][ and me without breaks too :) yey] and i remembered the sign saying -brakes ok- more like " breaks ok" yeah. hit me with it man

...i wanted to add. brains OK? course not. or else who would do something this mental.

we finally reached a museum of sorts at about ten[ still at a height of 2300 metres or so] . and asked the only occupant who was shocked to see us and also must have thought that we were mental if we could sleep in the parking lot.he said u ll freeze to death[ or something like that]. an idea to which i was not warming up to one bit... thankfully he had sense.which means we slept in the museum itself.which was great.and life saving of sorts.too tired to even eat, we tried to find out warm clothing only to find that they had gotten wet, so we wore whatever we could find, including a newspaper i had saved up from the last three days cause i had once been told on a trek to the Himalayas that if it gets too cold and u dont have any warm clothing, use a newspaper, it will help u keep warm. to which i remember replying, if i can get a newspaper in the bloody mountains, why would i be foolish enough not to get a sweater, but here i knew that the sweater was out of the question, and hence...newspaper, turned out to have some pis of naked ladies too, wonder if that added to the warmth at all onwards we continued our rather comical journey. part of which resembled r2d2 and c3po s relationship and part of which looked straight out of lord of the rings when they go to mordor, our rings being our bikes and Grossglockner being mordor. i have no idea who sauron was though. perhaps the chap who build the road ... ahoy , i see ...

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

mental climb

2010-10-16T09:17:00.001+05:30

well...bit of a background.
we cycled on the most broken down cycles u can imagine . i guess the salesman confused me [he looked a wee bit like one of gods modern art works.]i also use the word salesman v v loosely. he was a turkish chap at the flee market. the whole trip was about 1300 kms which i shall write about a bit later. this is only about grossglockner. austrias tallest mountain. we did not exactly cycled but mostly heaved it past as our cycles did break down and spectacularly at that. 3 different cyclists tried to help us but nodded gravely and said a few words. i understood "catastrophe " "ridiculous",[said with much enthusiasm at that],'mental' HA HA HA. all in vain.cause i was cycling or pushing or clawing no matter what. saw al the things u chaps mentioned. the crazzzzy stilts to hold up what looked like a wall and turned out to be some sort of sadistic Austrian joke which they call " road ". just the night before we went up this mountain, a British couple had told us that we were mental to do it.he said those who they saw has good bikes, no luggage and gave us a list of other short comings out bikes and clothes had[ didnt have the best warm clothing i realised later on :)] esp cause our bikes were in rather bad condition, mine especially,cause the spokes had broken, the tires bust,and i had sort of gotten them to work again,with much difficulty.the back tire moved like beyonse's backside, only a lot less sexy and a lot more effort on my part. after a few hrs of cycling.and the relentlessness of the incline,my girlfriend, Helen was getting v v tired as well and i did what silly and so called chivalrous men do.i took her bag as well[18 kgs plus my bag which was about 25 or so]and put it on top of mine.burn baby burn hehehe we mostly pushed the bikes as it was impossible to cycle on them.my back brakes were also holding the rather bootalicious prone back tire. so i just took them off :)[ the brakes, not the tire] .was it sunny and nice and warm...yes...in the Caribbeans though.here it just RAINEEEEED and a LOOOOOOOOT of wind[ enough at times to literally blow u off,my helmet blew off at one point and helens too, and we had to go down some distance to get her helmet] and later on snow tried to show us how foolish we were. but press on we did. reaching the top past 8 pm ( we had spent over 3 hrs trying to fix the bicycle spokes with the helpful people giving us encouraging comments that i had written of earlier)

too cold to feel any colder, we cycled down in pitch dark[ and that was in a way a good thing, cause if we had seen how steep it was, we would not have done it, as the saying goes, ignorance is bliss][ and me without breaks too :) yey] and i remembered the sign saying -brakes ok- more like " breaks ok" yeah. hit me with it man

...i wanted to add. brains OK? course not. or else who would do something this mental.

we finally reached a museum of sorts at about ten[ still at a height of 2400 metres or so] . and asked the only occupant who was shocked to see us and also asked us if we were mental if we could sleep in the parking lot.he said u ll freeze to death. an idea to which i was not warming up to one bit... thankfully he had sense.which means we slept in the museum itself.which was great.and life saving of sorts.too tired to even eat, we tried to find out warm clothing only to find that they had gotten wet, so we wore whatever we could find, including a newspaper i had saved up from the last three days cause i had once been told on a trek to the Himalayas that if it gets too cold and u dont have any warm clothing, use a newspaper, it will help u keep warm. to which i remember replying, if i can get a newspaper in the bloody mountains, why would i be foolish enough not to get a sweater, but here i knew that the sweater was out of the question, and hence...newspaper, turned out to have some pis of naked ladies too, wonder if that added to the warmth at all onwards we continued our rather comical journey. part of which resembled r2d2 and c3po s relationship and part of which looked straight out of lord of the rings when they go to mordor, our rings being our bikes and Grossglockner being mordor. i have no idea who sauron was though. perhaps the chap who build the road ... ahoy , i see ...

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

MAIRANDI

2010-07-22T14:57:00.000+05:30

MAIRANDI

A simple enough sounding word.
And in our innocence, many of us didn’t know what it meant.
Out dear friend said, it means something nice in Tamil, like hello, how are u.
And we ofcourse bought that.
So, on one of our excursion trips, we were travelling to Mahabalipuram, and all of us huddled together looking out of a window, just shouting and singing at the trees, the sky and the sun.
When manu says. Hey. Lets say, ‘’hello’’ to everyone we meet.
So we said ok. He said. Remember that word I taught u. to say hello. So all of us refresh our memory. And yep. We all get the pronunciation right.
So when we pass a cyclist. We all[7 of us ] shout out MAIRANDI!!!
No effect.
But about a minute after we shout it out. His cycle wobbles, and then he falls off to a great deal of laughter.
I am confused. Why did he fall off when we said hello…
Ah my over excited friend tells me. Cause Mairanadi mean U FUCKER in Tamil…
What an interesting way to say hello indeed …

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

Sick room

2010-07-22T14:56:00.001+05:30

Sick room

I don’t know about other schools, but the Bms sick room was aptly named [just as the ministry of defense was originally {and aptly at that} called the ministry of war.]
People , you would suppose went to the sick room cause they were ill. While in Bms, if by chance you somehow found yourself in the sick room, you were sure to fall ill. Such was its magnetic effect.
Yetch, I can still remember the smell of the room. There was something permanently pee like hiding somewhere there. No matter how much it was cleaned and made to feel, insofar as it was possible to make it, feel clean.
The high point of the sick rooms career was when a couple people got chicken pox in 1988.chicken pox is a rather contagious illness. And I am not sure, even today, if applying some purple liquid, is the real cure of it.
I was among the first 6 to get it. And so the sick room was full.
The food which never did taste particularly good, tasted even worse, or was it the smell. One could never tell.
its rather tiring to lie in bed all day, read some comic books, that you have read a thousand times and chit chat about just about nothings and anything’s.
Once in a while, just to test our guts, we would sneak out of the sick room to go to our respective dormitories to get something that would liven us up. This was probably what was the cause of what took place over the next month.
First 2-3 people from various dorms got chicken pox, then a couple more, then more and more. So much so that over 60 students and a few teachers got chicken pox. By the time the last of them got it, I was fine [this was 31 days after I got it]
So, here’s the irony of it all. Once I was well, I was confined to the …yep, sick room because hardly anyone was well and they were all in the dormitories…

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

joy's joy...

2010-05-16T20:25:00.000+05:30

joy's joy...

sounds like a wonderful name for a blog...what say?

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

kindness

2010-05-15T15:57:00.002+05:30

and this would best start with being kind to oneself...i cant state this enough. cause i do feel the kindness that begins within goes a long way to illuminate not only ourselves but those who we get in touch with :-)

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

2010-05-15T15:45:00.003+05:30

it is so interesting ... isnt it. that most of the world does not have easy access to water, to food, to cleanliness, to all those basic needs that so many of us[ us being them who have access to all of the above as well as Internet, and much else]
still feel so unhappy at so so many levals. and complain. i dont mean this badly. it is what it is.
is it unawareness? or lack of empathy? i dont know. but its there.
i wonder if one suddenly were able to sense the amazingness that is life, and the fact that we have much to be truly grateful for. if that were to suddenly take place. would the hungry noise of want die down? even a bit? and if so...what would take place? the witnessing of the miracle that is life :-)
hugs on that

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

2010-05-15T15:41:00.002+05:30

cant be stated enough times. be gentle with urself. i tell myself this as wel. its not just for u. its a each day, each moment process. while there is breath in u. be gentle and use that breath gently with urself as wel. love, joy and plenty hugs :-)

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

confu...si...o...u...and us :)

2010-05-15T15:34:00.003+05:30

and so dont be summed up so simply[ not saying u should do it in a complicated way either :P

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

Pacman's new home

2010-04-29T09:51:00.001+05:30

Pacman's new home
Originally uploaded by ColorMeKatie

colors of joy

i'm just a shadow of what i used to be.

2010-04-29T09:50:00.001+05:30

i'm just a shadow of what i used to be.
Originally uploaded by chelsea chen.

wow. how wonderfully wow

How many of these fears are holding you back?

2010-04-29T09:02:00.001+05:30

How many of these fears are holding you back?
How would you live if you had no fear at all?
You'd still have your intelligence and common sense to safely navigate around any real dangers, but without feeling the emotion of fear, would you be more willing to take risks, especially when the worst case wouldn't actually hurt you at all?
Would you speak up more often,
talk to more strangers,
ask for more sales,
dive headlong into those ambitious projects you've been dreaming about?
What if you even learned to enjoy the things you currently fear?
What kind of difference would that make in your life?

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

~~~~of joy.....

2010-04-13T19:45:00.002+05:30

found u...or more like found by u. deep breath and joy on that :) wow...
click...and the universe wakes up to us :) and wow to that

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

To walk in peace.

2010-04-05T09:26:00.000+05:30

To walk in peace.
To be free.
Without even the burden of a sect,
A thought.
What is it?
To wake, anew-
Without even the thought of newness.
Without rational,
Or justification
-to just wake up.
And to See.
Without having any kind of idea.
How is it?
Everything that im basing my se-cura on is quite baseless
How do we truly be Alive?
Without a reason-
Really without a reason-
Without a thought-
Without a care.
Without Fear.
Just being there-
PRESENT!
In itself.
I wonder if it’s possible.
I know that quite a few claim to be it.
But the actions that do stand out tells another story-
But as wit the emperors NEW clothes
Noone can see them but everyone feigns it,
Cause v r so sacred to think that v maybe the only ones who can’t see it.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

to let go...

2010-04-01T08:32:00.001+05:30

to let go...

just let go of ...what...

desire...want...quest...quake...

i feel my heart leap...

oh...will i see her again...

wil we touch our finger tips to the other...

will our lips ever meet in that smile,together,

i know not...

but for today, they shall....

for today , we hold hands,

for today we kiss in joy,

for today we are alive...

tomorrow we shall meet ,tomorrow :)

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

blooming of the flower

2010-03-31T17:54:00.001+05:30

i have realized that my doors to being with someone have been closed for many years and only recently have opened up. that ofcourse does not mean i wil get into one asap. on the contrary, i am now more aware of what sort of a person is more suited to being with a person like me.taken sometime. but here i am :) yey to that :)
and firstly- friendship means much to me and the whole ''dating thing'', which is impressing and suchlike[ stuff i am Not impressed by one bit].
glad we got that out of the way.

i would truly like to meet a lovely person[ not talking about feet being swept here :), sweeping is for homes :) ]
and interact and share and who knows what takes place then :) so if ur the kind of person, who can just sit together and share, sometimes a coffee, sometimes silence, sometimes just a hug. then would be nice to get to know you :)

some ask, what do you think i should change in me to attract others more.to them i say. there is ONLY one of you. if you change that...then you will not be you...pity.

watch three color blue[ and red too] if u think ur anything like either or both. cal me. really :) it would be lovely to hear from u :)))

i love to interact with others who are curious about Life and of Joy.

ur interested and interesting...if ur fond of adventure...and traveling...and r full of curiosity...and life...and also have that glint in ur eye...without tht glint...ooh...there isnt much,is there...

And are interested in having good MUGfuls[not cupful,by the way] of tea/Coffee :)preferably jasmine or gop-golden orange pekeo-uncuts the best...try it...u'll squeal with pleasure...

or coffee[and some icecream too ofcourse :P]...and are interested {and interesting} in havin a conversation with me and lastly-i am NOT interested in ur statistics...EXCEPT your EQ]]

interesting conversation and friendship is what makes us who we are.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

based on what i feel i need in my life :)

2010-03-25T17:13:00.000+05:30

Ok, so, here's the deal: I’m looking for the rare, woman who’s been able to find the balance between being an intelligent, healthy, driven woman, while at the same time still appreciating all of the wonderful “girly” things that make women so wonderful to behold! I can’t wait to meet you!.....

List of some of the reasons you might just want to contact me

1. You can look in the mirror and love who you are, and you don't need anyone to validate you - i.e. you are COMPLETE, unmedicated, and not a "project" case study.

2. You respect yourself and show it by taking care of yourself and staying healthy and really fit. We are riding in the fast lane, so be ready!

3. You truly appreciate romance and you reciprocate.

4. You have a passion for life, which leads to FUN!

5. You're compassionate, kind and caring towards others, and people occasionally point that out about you. On the flip side, you have a killer instinct and you rarely, if ever, give up.

6. You are bright, you care about the world around you, and choose to make it better, rather than embrace cynicism.

7. You want a companion who will stand by you, period. You are Loyal.

8. You don't play games or "waffle".

9. You go after what you want, and appreciate the same in the one you seek.

10. You simply want to have a kick ass fun time dancing randomly on in the morning ,drinking coffee and just generally being silly and enjoying that totally think it would be a great way to get to know me.

11. You think you can keep up AND slow down, remember what Ferris said, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

12. You're not a slob, and you value a guy who cleans up after himself.[and yet is messy]

13. You're waaay healthy and would like to hook me up with some kick ass recipes that don't taste like dirt!

15. Wouldn't hurt if you can cook, since I can, it'd be nice to trade off.

Passion is Vital. - JUST DO IT.

Time is of the essence.

Destiny awaits. Are you ready?

:) :) :)

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

interesting questions to ask...

2010-03-25T17:10:00.004+05:30

If you’re just looking for casual questions to ask someone who u are interested in.

After you meet a girl/guy and while you are establishing a friendship, you should get answers to these questions before you start dating. These important questions beg for an answer. They reveal a lot about what that person expects, and what that person is looking for in terms of their dreams, their spouse, their leisure time, and their ideals.

1. In an ideal relationship, what would you spend the majority of your time doing?

You need to be with someone who you would actually hang out with, someone who enjoys the same things as you. Yes, you can share each other’s different interests, but that’s why you need to ask this question, to see if you would enjoy adapting to their interests or if they would enjoy adapting to yours.

2. What do you expect from a guy/girl you’re dating? or What do you expect from a man/woman in your life?

You’d be surprised with the answers to this question. As humans, we assume that people have the same expectations that we do. Unfortunately, men and women are wired differently. That’s why this question is important. Not only are we different because of our genders, but we’re different because each person’s past experience helps mold their expectations and each person’s past experience is different.

3. What is your idea of living a good life?

Here you get a taste of what motivates the other person. You’ll get a taste of what drives them, what gives their life meaning and significance. It also gives you a view of what a future would look like with them.

4. What does a good relationship look like?

It’s always nice to know what the other person views as ideal in their eyes. You can see if you’re looking for the same thing in terms of what makes a relationship good.

5. What are you looking for in a guy/girl?

Let them name the top three qualities that are non-negotiable.

6. What have you learned from your past relationships?

Ideally, it would be nice to go through each of your past relationships, not to relive pain or point out the mistakes of your exes, but it’s important to know that the person you’re with has learned from their own mistakes and isn’t just moving forward ready to make the same repeat mistakes with you.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

monty python :)

2010-03-25T17:10:00.001+05:30

Bridgekeeper: Stop. Who would cross the Bridge of Death must answer me these questions three, ere the other side he see.
Sir Lancelot: Ask me the questions, bridgekeeper. I am not afraid.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your name?
Sir Lancelot: My name is Sir Lancelot of Camelot.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your quest?
Sir Lancelot: To seek the Holy Grail.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your favourite colour?
Sir Lancelot: Blue.
Bridgekeeper: Go on. Off you go.
Sir Lancelot: Oh, thank you. Thank you very much.
Sir Robin: That's easy.
Bridgekeeper: Stop. Who would cross the Bridge of Death must answer me these questions three, ere the other side he see.
Sir Robin: Ask me the questions, bridgekeeper. I'm not afraid.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your name?
Sir Robin: Sir Robin of Camelot.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your quest?
Sir Robin: To seek the Holy Grail.
Bridgekeeper: What... is the capital of Assyria?
[pause]
Sir Robin: I don't know that.
[he is thrown over the edge into the volcano]
Sir Robin: Auuuuuuuugh.
Bridgekeeper: Stop. What... is your name?
Galahad: Sir Galahad of Camelot.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your quest?
Galahad: I seek the Grail.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your favourite colour?
Galahad: Blue. No, yel...
[he is also thrown over the edge]
Galahad: auuuuuuuugh.
Bridgekeeper: Hee hee heh. Stop. What... is your name?
King Arthur: It is 'Arthur', King of the Britons.
Bridgekeeper: What... is your quest?
King Arthur: To seek the Holy Grail.
Bridgekeeper: What... is the air-speed velocity of an unladen swallow?
King Arthur: What do you mean? An African or European swallow?
Bridgekeeper: Huh? I... I don't know that.
[he is thrown over]
Bridgekeeper: Auuuuuuuugh.
Sir Bedevere: How do know so much about swallows?
King Arthur: Well, you have to know these things when you're a king, you know.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

~U R LOVED...WHY...CAUSE U R WORTH IT~

2010-03-25T13:04:00.001+05:30

i make this set of cardboard cut outs, and i write[ with a marker or pen]

~U R LOVED~

and i add either a cut out of a heart or 4 leafed clover[its suppose to be lucky] or star or something nice

and leave it at various parts of town

and y'day i gave 15 or so to all present at this meeting :

some laughed
as some do sometimes
some may thing me gay :) i dont care,i really dont :-)

One seed makes the whole earth green

which one...ah
the tough question :)

and i gave all there present one each
u know why?

cause u DESERVE IT

want it. crave it , but r too scared to ask.

here. i ,give it to u. cause u are special.

if u were not . u would not be here.

u deserve love, and joy

ok. perhaps today u may not have it in ur life. perhaps u dont think u deserve it

but. u do hope for it.

:this is for ur hope

this is for that little seed of joy

:and i hope. u pass this forward to others

who know what beautiful things come out of it?

life is short ...v v v short

why so serious?

leave the card someplace[ preferably not ur bathroom ]

gift it to someone, someone u care about, perhaps u havnt told them.or could just be a strange.

to do that

doesn't matter if they ~ laugh ~ some of u laugh

its ok. laugh ~ atleast i got u to laugh

i know me well enough not to worry bout u laughing at me

i am still me

even after the laughs :)
so its ok that to me is what my life is about
share, care ~ let be what is :)
You are all angels

to know anyone. one needs to just listen with an open heart...
and not carry ur burden of experience and judgment

i had grown weary of carrying and judging.i have done my fair [ or unfair as it were] share of it.

not a macho man u see :P

we are all sooooo scared
and so many of us r just so worth and sadly we never know that

cause we hide

cause we hope

and never share

even with ourselves

so know this. U R WORTH IT AND ARE WORTH ALL THE LOVE~~~

--

~ kunal ~

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

turbulence in the sky...

2010-03-25T13:00:00.001+05:30

written while flying in a plane that was badly shaken by the storm, people started to pray for their lives, and somehow i felt rather quiet and at peace with myself...so i took a tissue paper and wrote...

Turbulence in the sky-

Clouds below-

N even further the magnificence of the sea-

How little v r in this grand system-

A constant murmer-headin towards the city-

Struck by rain-unceasing, unstoppable-

N it’s caused much pain-

Slowly, it gets darker, colors blend into black

Water surrounding up from all sides-

N yet v fly on and on-

Oh-I feel so much-so much-

Inside out & world inside-

Pain washed away whilst the cloud brushes our sleeve-

And

Now

We …

See...

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

on hungry lions and being handsome :)

2010-03-25T12:58:00.001+05:30

“The lion is most handsome when looking for food”

i must look grrrrrrrrreat now, what with mama making me wait for lunch...grrr...hihihihihih'''

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

Rumi

2010-03-25T12:52:00.001+05:30

“Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.”

Jalal ad-Din Rumi quote

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

Jalal ad-Din Rumi

2010-03-25T12:51:00.001+05:30

“The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.”

Jalal ad-Din Rumi

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

about a girl...who jumps in joy

2010-03-25T10:17:00.002+05:30

This is strange isn’t it

Why why u ask…

its about a girl i say[ shy shy]

ah... is that so...

why is that strange...

cause she wrote me a mail...

a 'whole mail'

that is strange is it?

yes... her whole profile was a mail

wow...that is something...

and then what happened?

And it was to me…gosh…

And I too changed my profile to write her a mail…sneaky me…

And then she wrote me a puzzle…which confused me. But it was a nice confusion…

why did she write u a quiz?

I didn’t know at first. At all. Found it nice.

So I answered it[ using google ofcourse] and then I sent her a quiz as well…

What did u send?

Oh, nothing in particular, the worlds hardest puzzle,its called…

But I now know I got the world’s Sweetest puzzle EVER…

How so…

[blush]

Tell me..oh do tell me…

Oh…hihihi…well. Her puzzle answered her name…and I didn’t see it at first.i have no idea how I found it actually.but the name just leapt out at me[ eventually]

I was …stunned and touched…

!!!WOW!!!

Yeah…wow…

And now what?

Well. We wrote each other a mail. And she’s coming to delhi…

Isn’t that wonderful…

Yeah,it is. I would go if she’s ok with it.would like to meet someone who can jump like that. And think,and feel like that. Would love to.

Isn’t it wonderful how suddenly,and surreally u find someone…

Yeah…it is…gosh…when I think of it.i am deeply amused…it is strange…

And surreal…but lovely…lovely…

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

pictures of joy :)

2010-03-24T14:48:00.002+05:30

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

4 core relationship values.

2010-03-15T14:57:00.000+05:30

4 core relationship values. They are:

1. Receiving/giving love by connecting physically and personally
2. Practicing mutual respect
3. Supporting each other’s personal goals
4. Supporting our family (primarily emotionally, but some financial)

just 4 u may say...think again... :)

1- is also :

* Sharing time together at reasonable intervals
* Good sex at reasonable intervals
* Holding hands / cuddling, particularly at night
* Positive verbal comments
* Having some fun times
* Some sort of responsiveness to my requests (“can’t do that now” and “would you do that instead?” are fine responses, silence isn’t)

and so on... :)

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

Tea time in school...

2010-03-15T14:56:00.000+05:30

Tea time in school...

Tea time was after sports. We played hard six days a week for over one hour. And even if was raining or freezing. So food was important [indeed the most important thing I can remember]
To provide us with adequate nourishment, the school provided us at tea time with –
A bun and two biscuits or
Four biscuits or
Upma [a sort of hardish salty porridge]
Poha, beaten rice [quantity was about 22 grams]
Peanuts [I’m not kidding –22 grams of peanuts, nothing else]
And tea with the consistency of hot water with a tinge of sepia [slightly sweet].

We therefore behaved liked wild animals who were permanently starved.
Some of us patient chaps [cause it was coooold and we were in shorts and t shirt at tea time] waited for everyone to leave so that we can have the remains of the tea. Which we literally inhaled. It was hot and… well. It was hot. That was all that mattered.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

random stories of BMS :) the fart~~~

2010-03-15T14:55:00.000+05:30

RANDOM STORIES AND INCIDENTS…

BMS had excursions yearly. For one week each year, we would all pack our bags and go to a nice destination, mostly it was a beach [or was it always] kovalam, pondy, goa, mangalore and suchlike.

One year we went to Mangalore – I think it was 1989 or 90. And each group was further divided into boys who were ‘responsible’ and boys who needed to be looked after [girls were divided in much the same way, but without the quotes  ]
I was in a group consisting of rahul, pritam and kamlesh and I was by total mistake, accorded the ‘responsible’ tag.
Kamlesh and I were the best of friends and we often went out shopping together. One day after finishing shopping [we were given the princely sum of rupees 20 for the whole week! And we made that last  ]
We came back to find ourselves staring at a curious sight.
Pritam was in his white underwear [chaddis as we called them] and sort of spread eagle, and rahul was sniffing what looked like pritams crotch… [HAHAHAHA]…
Unable to guess at just what was going on… we said… ‘Err… maybe we should come later … rahul said, no don’t do that. Why don’t u smell if Pritam has farted!!!
I said, ‘WHAT? ‘ . Rahul said. Pritam has farter and denies it. So I am smelling his bum to prove he farted. Kamlesh said’ there r only two of u in this room, shouldn’t that be easy to guess who farted?’ And we burst out laughing   
be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

surreal is the only real ;)

2010-03-15T14:54:00.000+05:30

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

royston...

2010-03-15T14:53:00.001+05:30

Royston…

A friend to all, a Casanova to many, a cricketer par excellent.
And someone who lived with such a great passion for life.
Sigh…I miss him deeply.
Royston was best described as the life of a party. A person who had a loud booming laughter, and lived in the most carefree of ways.
Someone who traveled light.
Girls just loved him, his guitar strumming, and a flirtatious smile across his face, his hair a bit messy. Energetically moaning a song. U could see how he swayed them.
A boy who was living the very essence that people so hope to live.
There were so many good things about this chap that u really don’t know where to start.
As a sports person he was super athletic and passionate, yet he never ever cheated.
And a friend, he lent an ear in a way v v few could or can. Never judged, always listened, and always was there for those who wanted someone to listen to them.
I remember in madras when I stayed with him. A woman asked him for money for a bus ticket. And he asked her where she was going. After she told him. He told her, Come here at 5 pm. There is a bus to... which ever place she was planning on going to. I will buy u a ticket if u come.
I asked him after we went away, will she come? He said. I don’t know. But if she does come , I know she is serious about going… such was his kindness…
Royston was also one of the biggest eaters of all time. Our tables used to compete on how many idli’es he and me could eat and also how many each table can put away.our table ate something like87 idlies [ between 87 of 7 us] and his managed 89 [12, but number didn’t count they said :D]
And he ate 35 to my 34…I was ….uggg…and so was he, but we ate and ate and ate  it was something else that we could barely walk after that.
The funniest thing is that a tiny boy called neubert ate 38 idlies!!! How? We couldn’t ever find out. We ever turned him over to find out, but couldn’t.
I miss his energy and laughter,even though I hadn’t heard it for years…

Sigh…what a beautiful chap …
May u be in peace man.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

bms stories.[ stories of my school and the joy it shared with so many of us :) ] blue mountain school :)

2010-03-15T14:51:00.001+05:30

Sick room

I don’t know about other schools, but the Bms sick room was aptly named [just as the ministry of defense was originally {and aptly at that} called the ministry of war.]

People , you would suppose went to the sick room cause they were ill. While in Bms, if by chance you somehow found yourself in the sick room, you were sure to fall ill. Such was its magnetic effect.

Yetch, I can still remember the smell of the room. There was something permanently pee like hiding somewhere there. No matter how much it was cleaned and made to feel, insofar as it was possible to make it, feel clean.

The high point of the sick rooms career was when a couple people got chicken pox in 1988.chicken pox is a rather contagious illness. And I am not sure, even today, if applying some purple liquid, is the real cure of it.

I was among the first 6 to get it. And so the sick room was full.

The food which never did taste particularly good, tasted even worse, or was it the smell. One could never tell.
its rather tiring to lie in bed all day, read some comic books, that you have read a thousand times and chit chat about just about nothings and anything’s.

Once in a while, just to test our guts, we would sneak out of the sick room to go to our respective dormitories to get something that would liven us up. This was probably what was the cause of what took place over the next month.

First 2-3 people from various dorms got chicken pox, then a couple more, then more and more. So much so that over 60 students and a few teachers got chicken pox. By the time the last of them got it, I was fine [this was 31 days after I got it]

So, here’s the irony of it all. Once I was well, I was confined to the …yep, sick room because hardly anyone was well and they were all in the dormitories…

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

ten questions...

2009-11-04T11:15:00.002+05:30

i've decided to ask myself 10 questions, asked quickly and without thinking about them. even the answering when it takes place is done with out thinking , cause then we try to say this or that :)

when the next set of ten 's are asked, then the first ten arer reviewed to see if they have any conclusion, have changed in any way, etc.

i think this an interesting exercise.

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

2009-11-04T11:13:00.002+05:30

what do i want from life? is a big question. and probably needs a simple answer...the search has taken me to remarkably new and interesting places.but it goes on[ of course]. to find peace.to find contentment.inwardly. is an interesting thing and one that no amount of philosophy helps.

for that all façades of yourself must die ...

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

ikiru - to be ... :):):)

2008-11-12T17:52:00.000+05:30

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

quiet raindrops...

2008-10-26T10:19:00.000+05:30

the quietness of raindrops,

t r i c k l i n g down the window.

u watch in amazement,

as the trees play with laughter and joy...

the birds rushing around for shelter, feathers ruffled...

inside ur heart,warmth penetrates ur soul... *** ^^^

whispered fragrance's...

2008-10-26T10:14:00.000+05:30

in this land of glory...

where the fragrance is whispered ......

where the trees talk quietly,

so as to let the birds sleep,

a drop of Rain arrives to the joy of all...

bapuji

2008-10-26T10:07:00.000+05:30

Bapuji-

Born once,lived once,died once
-how orderly tht is-did u love once as well?
thats a shame thou-i miss u
.seems like im th only one
.tht ür gone is unknown to everyone else
-ür room empty,ür bed empty,my last relative-my last tie...
food,money&th pain of yesterdays is all tht u had
-i brought u love,like u did for me,thou in a different way-
u looked after me long after ür fatherhood-
sheltered me,cared for me,came in a rickety bus,
even wit ür back giving up,even when u cant bear the cold-
i love u all over again-now ür wit amma,my ever compassionate mother,
perhaps u can learn from her wat she is about.
u missed her so so much,but only after she left,u loved her so so much...
but only after she left-i learnt from u,thru negation
-tht love,care&understanding r the most important things in life
-yes u have money which has helped me also-
but money cant buy me love.cant buy me care.
cant buy me a grandfather who comes to ooty thru pain&cold-

not really-
it cant… ... ...

u taught me tht.u had faith in my judgement when noone else did,
it meant a lot to me.it really did-even so much tht i didnt know it would
i miss u-

missed kissing u on ür forehead,miss holding ür soft hand & listening to ür stories of banking,of food,of amma.of ür achievements,over&over and over again

.i love u bapuji-noone else to be called tht again...may u move in peace,love&eternal harmony.

ür ever loving son/grandson.

:)

2008-10-26T10:04:00.000+05:30

this one sentance sums up what i try and do in life!

be happy, be simple, walk lightly, sing sweetly... be who u are... wat else can there be!!!

the dark side...

2007-10-14T21:02:00.000+05:30

the Dark side of the moon,

never shown...never seen,

is it white?is it black?

is it a diva or a beauty queen...

everyday a beautiful reflection,everyday a beautiful calm

everydays poets write about u...

n of ur loving charm...

but then they have not been to ur dark side...

alas,not all poets are astronauts...nor do all astronauts go to the dark side...

it is not to say that the reflection is less or that the poets say more...

but just as a reminder to all that there is more to the story...

that there is more in the core...

n now v've seen it.

been through the dark side.

been beyond the reflection ---

beyond the poets...

n now we have a more complete picture.

so that we can appreciate the whole of the moon...

... ... ... and even the Dark side...

on the bus...

2007-09-12T10:13:00.000+05:30

IN THE BUS TODAY I SAW AN AD.IT GOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS- DONT LOOK OUT OF THE WINDOW.LOOK INSIDE THE BUS AND SEE IF U CAN SEE SUSPICIOUS LOOKING PEOPLE......
WHAT???!!!???
SUSPICIOUS LOOKING PEOPLE...HOW DO THEY LOOK???
IS MY BIAS ALLOWED OR AM I TO BE LIKE KING SOLOMON???
WHAT ABOUT WHEN I LOOK OUT OF THE WINDOW N FIND SOMEONE ""SUSPICIOUS LOOKING""...
I DO KNOW THAT THERE ARE FOR SOME REASON OR ANOTHER A FEW PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE WITHER V V ANGRY OR WHO HAVE BEEN INCREDIABLY BADLY BRAIN WASHED...
BUT WOULD THEY LOOK NECESSARILY SUSPICIOUS?OR JUST SOME NORMAL CHAPS...
DO THEY NEED TO HAVE LONG BEARDS AND A HAUNTED LOOK???
NOT NECESSARILY...
N ON A LIGHTER NOTE.THE BUS IS SO SO CROWDED THAT U CANT SEE UR OWN TWO FEET,EVEN IF THEY ARE LOOKING AT U SUSPICIOUSLY...

on champions or so they r called

2007-08-07T01:10:00.000+05:30

yesterdays formula one championship had sometihing that i ve been observing a lot in sports...fernando alonso acting like[or rather being] a spoilsoprt and sore loser...trying to block the young upstart[as he would see it] lewis hamilton.for that -he was awarded a four place drop...he's fuming...wonder why.last year micheal schumarkar did the very same thing to him and got [penilised for it.at that point alonso was very vocal about it and said that shumi may have won a lot of races but that he is not a true champion and that many people do not really like him...all of which may be true-but this year-the reigning 'champion' has scumbelled to the very same disease...sour loser...in cricket too i have noticed how the aussies play the game brilliantly and with a lot of team work and ofcourse-goes without saying -sledging- but when they are under pressure and the other team is thrashing them-then its mostly ---MAMMA...i remember when glenn mcgrath-a great bowler in his own right-was sledging sarwan-saying things bout sarwans mum-n sarwan gave it back to him and said something about mcgraths wife-[who at that point had cancer...how was sarwan supposed to know...]so is mcgrath more justified simply because sarwans mother is healthy...is a person who has taken more wickets than any other fast bowler in history-a supposit great champion really that...i dont know.as has been said-once your rich enough -u can afford to have morals...

of hendrix and a nice way to sleep...

2007-08-07T00:58:00.000+05:30

last night...i was listening to hendrix playing the blues...n was recording it on my mobile...n whilst doing so...i fell asleep...so recording 10 minutes of hendrix and 2 hours and forty minutes of silence...nice way to fall asleep...

A GREAT PLEASURE...

2007-08-06T11:05:00.000+05:30

a GReaT pleasure
Like a cool, calming and melodious rain
Very soothing, very smooth
The coolness of it trickling down Ur forehead to the tip of ur nose
And onto Ur lips
The taste explosive, now, brilliant
And a rainbow with its grandous colors
Encompassing the world
A fairy slides down it leaving a trail of glitter
Daisies, roses, daffodils in bloom
Children playing with water balloons

rain,rain...

2007-08-06T11:00:00.000+05:30

Rain, Rain,

Great and gentle cleanser of all pain

Oh, how I love it when u come

When u sing and when u hum

I can see the plants dance & the trees sway as if in a trance

Moon drops from the sky

Falling on my silken brow and making me sigh

Thank u for being here

For energizing me and making me clear

Of all the joys u do always show

& Give life its ever-unique glow

Now I understand what it is to cry

Now I see what it means to die

To come together like raindrops do

To form a beautiful and gentle pool

I hear u coming down & down

Making the earth wet and making the birds frown

Like the cooing of a bird

Gently put me to sleep, of, yet , unheard!

Drum battle

2007-08-03T18:13:00.001+05:30

dennis chambers - loud jazz

2007-08-02T03:17:00.001+05:30

how much should u exercise???

2007-08-02T01:58:00.000+05:30

How much should u exercise?

Aerobic exercise and muscle strengtheningFor the greatest overall health benefits, experts recommend that you do 20 to 30 minutes of aerobic activity three or more times a week and some type of muscle strengthening activity and stretching at least twice a week.
30 minutes a dayHowever, if you are unable to do this level of activity, you can gain substantial health benefits by accumulating 30 minutes or more of moderate-intensity physical activity a day, at least five times a week.
Begin slowly-esp if ur name is {please fill in ur name here}…If you have been inactive for a while, you may want to start with less strenuous activities such as walking or swimming at a comfortable pace. Beginning at a slow pace will allow you to become physically fit without straining your body. Once you are in better shape, you can gradually do more strenuous activity.
Don't push yourselfYou don't have to push yourself to benefit from physical activity. Thirty minutes of gentle activity (like walking) can be just as healthy as 15 minutes of intense activity (like fast dancing).
Warning!Recent research at Ohio State University has revealed a 200% increase (over 20 years) in health problems among middle-aged people who began intensive exercise too abruptly. These problems ranged from heart trouble to tissue damage.The moral?

Don't push yourself too far, too fast. Go slowly and live longer...

and cheers to that...

so what kind of exercise burns fat...

2007-08-02T01:57:00.001+05:30

SO…WHAT KIND OF EXERCISE BURNS FAT???

All exercise burns Calories. (Well duhh!) But since you already know that(I hope…), I won’t waste your time blathering about the science of how and why. For weight loss purposes the only important thing you probably don’t know about it is the actual numbers of Calories that various activities will burn.
Physiologists consider a measurement called “VO2 max” to be the most accurate single measure of “aerobic fitness” (which is the body’s ability to produce energy by “burning” fuel). The more oxygen your body is capable of using (when needed), the better your level of aerobic fitness is, and the higher your “VO2 max” will be. You don’t really need to know anything about VO2 max except that it’s easily and routinely measured and is a good scientific measure of how much energy is being produced and whether the energy is coming from fat or glycogen or protein.
“VO2” means the volume (V) of oxygen (O2) in liters that the body consumes per minute per kilogram of body weight. VO2 “max” means the maximum amount of oxygen your body is capable of using. This amount depends on your fitness level. We couch potatoes have a much lower VO2 max than highly trained athletes. However, even though your VO2 max is probably pitiful compared to Michael Jordan’s, this is not the most important issue in weight-loss exercising (fortunately). The important issue is the relative intensity level you exercise at.

beat excuses...

2007-08-02T01:54:00.000+05:30

how to beat the excuse of no time to run...or exercise.

1-use an alarm clock.
set it to half hour before the time tht u wanto wake up.it wont seriously cut into ur sleep time n will give ur day a welcome boost.

2-george bush[yes,tht one] manages to find time to run everyday.despite his busy schedule of us vs them.r u busier than the president of the usa???

3-climb stairs rather than taking the lift at work and while ur going home.
if there arnt any stairs to take then do leg raises.

4-at the lunch break , do some squats.i know tht this may sound or look funny.but it is ur body after all n u need to take care of it.
having stronger thighs takes pressure away from the back n keep u sitting erect in a more relaxed way.

5-be realistic bout ur goals.dont imagine tht by doing a few squats in the lunch break or by climbing a few floors everyday, u wil start seeing results immediately.it has taken u time to gain al the weight and to put on the inches and it wil take u time to lose them.

just dont give up or lose hope.

2007-07-22T18:46:00.000+05:30

Love

No memory

Always be.

2007-07-22T18:38:00.000+05:30

A child sits watching

The big black eyes curious, wide and full of life

Tiny fingers outstretched

Reaching out for anything

A smile permeates

Showing little white pearls

The body unstable but energetic, like a grin

The grasp of a palm

Curiosity grips him like a charm

Its not realized which is what and whose is which

There's no difference and … it doesn't matter.

This remarkable delicate being

Helps all around him to be that

To touch and giggle with delight

To be a child without any plight

Have you ever been this?

when...

2007-07-22T10:57:00.000+05:30

when …when is it that u shall come

My body sweats in [a] wait of u

The sky clear, the sun ablaze

Perhaps in the villages the peoples faces r set in patient glaze

& Yet u show no sign of urself

The last time u came

U let urself free; u bent the trees and cleaned their leaves

U washed away the rubbish

U flooded the streets and had the entire city at Ur mercy.

And u showed them none

But the little urchins enjoyed it thoroughly

Oh, what splendid fun

The roofs leaked, even though they were fixed.

Buckets put up everywhere

People cowering for shelter

Going all around, here and there

My arms outstretched, my brow drenched

Singing in thy glory,

darken, clouds growl

Waiting and wanting to tell me another beautiful story...

why women should do weight training...

2007-07-18T09:41:00.000+05:30

Weight training over the years brings to mind Arnold schetweneggers bulging biceps et al. this has probably caused most women to treat weight training as important in their life as tapole rearing,tractor racing and cricket in india... The major reasoning given for this is that weight training will make women look "bulky" and then they will have "bulging muscles", this is not true, simply because for "bulging muscles" you need testosterone, which women do have, but just traces of.secondly,a fitter and toned body is firmer, because muscle takes up much less space than fat. So, when looked at closely, weight training does have many wonderful benefits, which go a long way in helping a woman be fitter, healthier and even happier.

You Will Lose Body Fat. Women who strength trains two to three times a week for two months will gain nearly two pounds of muscle and will lose 3.5 pounds of fat. As your lean muscle increases so does your resting metabolism and you burn more calories all day long. Generally speaking, for each pound of muscle you gain, you burn 35 to 50 more calories each day. Put another way that adds up to 5 to 10 pounds a year!

You Will Be Physically Stronger. Increasing your strength will make you far less dependent upon others (especially other men) for assistance in daily living. Chores will be easier, lifting kids, groceries and laundry will no longer push you to the max. If your maximum strength is increased, daily tasks and routine exercise will be far less likely to cause injury. Research studies conclude that even moderate weight training can increase a woman's strength by 30 to 50 percent. Research also shows that women can develop their strength at the same rate as men.

You Will Gain Strength without Bulking up Unlike men, women typically don't gain size from strength training, because compared to men; women have 10 to 30 times less of the hormones that cause muscle to, as it's commonly put; bulk up. (The testosterone I was talking about earlier). You will, however, develop muscle tone and definition and your body will look younger as your skin becomes tighter. This is a bonus.

You will significantly decrease Your Risk Of osteoporosis. Women in India are especially prone to osteoporosis. This is mainly due to their diet. Research has found that weight training can increase spinal bone mineral density (and enhance bone modeling) by 13 percent in six months. This, coupled with an adequate amount of dietary calcium, can be a women's best defense against osteoporosis.

Many researches have concluded that strength training improves athletic ability in all. You will be able to continue for longer periods of time with less fatigue. Whatever sport you play, strength training has been shown to improve overall performance as well as decrease the risk of injury. You will also be more confident in taking up new activities that you may have been shy of taking up in the past

You Will Reduce Your Risk Of Injury, Back Pain and Arthritis Strengthening the low-back muscles had an 80 percent success rate in eliminating or alleviating low-back pain. Strength training not only builds stronger muscles, but also helps strengthen the surrounding tissues and ligaments, which in turn increases joint stability. This acts as reinforcement for the joints and helps prevent injury. Other studies have indicated that weight training can ease the pain of osteoarthritis and strengthen joints.

You Will Reduce Your Risk of Heart Disease. Unlike men, women typically don't gain size from strength training, because compared to men; women have 10 to 30 times less of the hormones that cause muscle to, as it's commonly put; bulk up. (The testosterone I was talking about earlier). You will, however, develop muscle tone and definition and your body will look younger as your skin becomes tighter. This is a bonus.
You will significantly decrease Your Risk Of osteoporosis. Women in India are especially prone to osteoporosis. This is mainly due to their diet. Research has found that weight training can increase spinal bone mineral density (and enhance bone modeling) by 13 percent in six months. This, coupled with an adequate amount of dietary calcium, can be a women's best defense against osteoporosis.
You Will Improve Your Athletic Performance. Many researches have concluded that strength training improves athletic ability in all. You will be able to continue for longer periods of time with less fatigue. Whatever sport you play, strength training has been shown to improve overall performance as well as decrease the risk of injury. You will also be more confident in taking up new activities that you may have been shy of taking up in the past.
You Will Reduce Your Risk Of Injury, Back Pain and Arthritis. Strengthening the low-back muscles had an 80 percent success rate in eliminating or alleviating low-back pain. Strength training not only builds stronger muscles, but also helps strengthen the surrounding tissues and ligaments, which in turn increases joint stability. This acts as reinforcement for the joints and helps prevent injury. Other studies have indicated that weight training can ease the pain of osteoarthritis and strengthen joints.

You Will Reduce Your Risk of Heart Disease Weight training can improve cardiovascular health in several ways, including lowering LDL ("bad") cholesterol, increasing HDL ("good") cholesterol and lowering blood pressure. When cardiovascular exercise is added, these benefits are maximized.

You Will Reduce Your Risk of Diabetes . Training may improve the way the body processes sugar, which can reduce the risk of diabetes.

Women in their 70s and 80s have built up significant strength through weight training and studies show that strength improvements are possible at any age. However, please make sure that a strength training professional should always supervise older participants.

You Will Improve Your Attitude And Fight Depression. It has also been found that strength training reduced clinical depression symptoms more successfully than standard counseling did. Women who strength train commonly report feeling more confident and capable as a result of their program, all important factors in fighting depression and blood pressure. Weight training can improve cardiovascular health in several ways, including lowering LDL ("bad") cholesterol, increasing HDL ("good") cholesterol and lowering blood pressure. When cardiovascular exercise is added, these benefits are maximized.
You Will Reduce Your Risk of Diabetes. Training may improve the way the body processes sugar, which can reduce the risk of diabetes.

Age is NOT a factor.

Women in their 70s and 80s have built up significant strength through weight training and studies show that strength improvements are possible at any age. However, please make sure that a strength training professional should always supervise older participants.
You Will Improve Your Attitude And Fight Depression. It has also been found that strength training reduced clinical depression symptoms more successfully than standard counseling did. Women who strength train commonly report feeling more confident and capable as a result of their program, all important factors in fighting depression.
Now that you have been shown all these benefits,and that all it takes to get the benefits is that you watch one program less(all the Kyu Ke Saas Aur Bahu serials watch out…)…the BIG question…
so... ... ...when are you starting ?

how to overcome lower back pain!!!

2007-07-18T09:30:00.000+05:30

Lower back pain is one of the most common ailments people suffer from and approximately 8 out of 10 people will deal with back pain at some point in their life{and i do hope that you beng to the other two who dont suffer from it}. That's a lot of people… are you one of them? Out of all of the various forms of back pain, lower back pain is by far the most common and there's a good explanation for this. Any idea why? It's not car accidents, it's not work-related injuries, and it's not a lack of prescription medications either. Lack of movement and use is the number one cause of back pain! I bet your orthopedic specialist or chiropractor didn't tell you that, did they? It's the lack of movement in various muscles over years that leads to muscle imbalances and uneven wear and tear on your body, especially the spine. For example, how many times a day are you bending, leaning, or twisting.
Here's what the typical person's day is like:

· Wake up
· Eat breakfast (hopefully)
· Drive or ride to work
· Sit at desk
· Eat lunch
· Sit at desk some more
· Drive or ride home
· Eat dinner
· Sit on couch and watch tv
· Go to bed

Notice the trend here? That's an awful lot of sitting and not moving. Well, this is what leads to serious muscle imbalances and so what do we do, we go to the gym and perform exercises that only make the imbalances worse! The key to eliminating back pain (nearly any ache, pain, or injury for that matter) is to identify the muscle imbalances that are pulling the spine, bones, and joints out of place and then stretch the tight muscles while strengthening the weak muscles.

How do I know this? Well, as certified personal fitness trainer and post-rehabilitation specialist, I have worked with hundreds of individuals with back pain and the conditions that ranged from sciatic pain, to bulging discs, to spinal fusion, and others. In working with these individuals I discovered some startling facts.

all of the individuals I worked with were able to eliminate their back pain, or significantly improve their condition even though all of the traditional treatments failed them (physically therapy, chiropractic care, cortisone injections, anti-inflammatory medications, surgery, etc). Even more amazing is the fact that most of these individuals were able to eliminate their back pain in a matter or days or weeks simply by performing a handful of exercises and stretches! These weren't your basic exercises or the standard back stretches and stomach exercises most "experts" recommend these were specific exercises and stretches prescribed based on the individual. Many of these people had suffered for years and years with aches, pains, and stiffness and lived inactive lives because of their back pain.

Most treatment plans offered only address the symptoms and don't address the cause, which usually delivers just temporary relief for the individual. In addition to helping hundreds of others eliminate back pain, I also have had personal experiences with back pain and other various conditions such as tendonitis, muscle strains and sprains, and more. In every single situation the traditional treatments did nothing but treat the symptoms (often times not successfully) and the only approach that gave lasting improvements and relief was targeted stretches and exercises. Have you tried traditional treatments and found little relief? I am not saying these treatments are not effective at temporarily reducing the pain or inflammation, but I am saying nearly all fail to get rid of the underlying cause of the problem.

Many people who seek professional help are often mis-diagnosed and end up following a treatment plan that fails to eliminate the cause of their back pain.
Nearly all of the individuals I worked with were able to eliminate their back pain, or significantly improve their condition even though all of the traditional treatments failed them (physically therapy, chiropractic care, cortisone injections, anti-inflammatory medications, surgery, etc). Even more amazing is the fact that most of these individuals were able to eliminate their back pain in a matter or days or weeks simply by performing a handful of exercises and stretches! These weren't your basic exercises or the standard back stretches and stomach exercises most "experts" recommend these were specific exercises and stretches prescribed based on the individual. Many of these people had suffered for years and years with aches, pains, and stiffness and lived inactive lives because of their back pain.
Most treatment plans offered only address the symptoms and don't address the cause, which usually delivers just temporary relief for the individual. In addition to helping hundreds of others eliminate back pain, I also have had personal experiences with back pain and other various conditions such as tendonitis, muscle strains and sprains, and more. In every single situation the traditional treatments did nothing but treat the symptoms (often times not successfully) and the only approach that gave lasting improvements and relief was targeted stretches and exercises. Have you tried traditional treatments and found little relief? I am not saying these treatments are not effective at temporarily reducing the pain or inflammation, but I am saying nearly all fail to get rid of the underlying cause of the problem.

So how do you identify these muscle imbalances? Well, it isn't easy but with a basic understanding of how your body works you can at least start looking at your situation and find out which muscles are over worked and too strong and/or tight and which ones are too weak and stretched out.

It also helps if you can find a qualified health professional who specializes in identifying muscle imbalances. Unfortunately, there are still few professionals who use what I call the "common sense approach." However, your best bet is to look for a personal fitness trainer that is trained and certified in post-rehabilitation, a manual physical therapist, or an osteopath. Also, don't be afraid to ask questions... you need to take charge of your health care and be sure to quiz them to find out what type of an approach they take in treating back pain. I wish you the best and remember the key to a healthy back is movement!

Thelonious Monk In Berlin 1973

2007-07-11T08:48:00.003+05:30

Miles Davis - Human Nature

2007-07-11T08:48:00.001+05:30

Jack Dejohnette - Conception of Frases

2007-07-11T08:36:00.003+05:30

Art Blakey's Jazz Mssengers - Moanin' (1/2)

2007-07-11T08:28:00.001+05:30

THELONIOUS MONK QUARTET - 'ROUND MIDNIGHT

2007-07-11T08:06:00.007+05:30

John Coltrane Quartet - My Favorite Things

2007-07-11T08:06:00.005+05:30

John Coltrane -' My Favourite Things'

2007-07-11T08:06:00.003+05:30

Charles Lloyd and Billy Higgins

2007-07-11T08:06:00.001+05:30

Ginger Baker-the cream reunion-2005

2007-07-11T03:22:00.001+05:30

Eloy Casagrande - Modern Drummer Festival Weekend 2005

2007-07-11T03:00:00.001+05:30

The Cream, White Room

2007-07-11T02:57:00.001+05:30

2007-07-08T18:49:00.002+05:30

tiredness. . .
both inwards and outwards,
like a boxer who has had one fight too many.
hard to raise your hand to defend yourself,
hard to raise your hand to attack.
just hopeing to go out in glory.
without too many broken teeth or bones.
hopeing tht the dazzle of lights are not when you are knocked out,
but the lights of glory.
you have prepared for this moment,
of what you think of this moment.
the end.
where you could hold your head high.
listening to gthe accolades,the cheers... ... ...and ... and not the gasps.
you'll have to stop now:the doctor says...
you 'll have to stop now.

2007-07-08T18:49:00.000+05:30

what world does the blind man see..
is it as gloomy as this one,
or does it have colors of its own,
like we have the sun.
are trees green in it,
and is the sky blue.
do birds fly in it,like the pigeons do.
does the grass flirt with the wind,
and...is the stream rich,
or does he have to be told ,
which is which.
but;who is the blind man and who is not.
cause surely we are all blind,
or else this world would not rot...

on the being of love...

2007-07-08T14:01:00.000+05:30

love,understanding,trust,mutual appreciation,faith,respect.

when 1 decides to write bout love,so far as i ve read or even heard of its based mostly on personal experience or some preconceived notions (but ofcourse) or perhaps even some fairy tale ideas tht one would ideally like as reality.
so in tht sense,wat im going to be writings not going to be a bolt from the blue.but even so,i hopefully i'll rest the preconceived notions,but yes-it is based on personal experience.
so why,u'll be askin urself whys this guy writing this then.
cauuse i think tht there is something tht i ve learnt tht i find very valuable to share...cause its not based on the bitterness or anger or hope tht usually goes wit personal experience,so far as i can tell.its not even based on careful reasoning or breaking it down to careful little bits to examine.
so ... curious now?
my answers probably going 2 b a bit subjective,buti'll try n keep it clean.
but 1st i would like to look at (n dispell) a few concepts.the worldwidw favorite being 'love at first sight'.
this near mythical idea is used more often than i can care to recollect.i've pondered upon it a bit myself & i may add tht i've not experienced it.also i haved peronally observed among friends of mine tht this 'love at 1st sight' seems to happen quite frequently wit men falling in love wit a particularly well endowed woman...
So going by tht,it would seem tht the person who falls in love 'at 1st sight' is either bursting at their seems wit hormones,so the 1st sight is in a few ways quite similar 2 the way tht a lion who's feelin particularly famished would treat his prey,only more diplomatically.
secondly,n this is food for thought-if a person can decide something as great as love...almost at 1st sight,then do imagine what treatment lesser emotions would be getting.
lastly,perhaps whover came up wit the concept i n the 1st place may just have been dyslexic-gettin only th 1st alphabet correct-L n then misspelling the rest as OVE rather than UST...
the romantic industry n especially hallmark,etc susvives on this n other interesting concepts for their bread n butter.

all this does not mean tht when a person says 'i love u'-it dsnt mean nything.is does...n differently at different stages of a courtship/relationship.
so-wat does it mean when a person says 'i love u'?
assuming tht it has been said truthfully n not for the above stated reasons-to the person tht its said to the 1st time,its a great great feelin,esp if tht person also feels the sameway & also if its the 1st time in their lives.
returning to the earlier point...what does it mean to the person who says it? is it just a physical feelin of the stomach churning,feeling a bit light headed,a bit of a tingly feeling all over & generally all the colors looking more vivid,like a technicolor movie on view. these are among the firstphysical feeling tht a lot of us get.scientists have found out tht the hormones a persons body releases when one 'falls in love' are quite similar to taking drugs[the side effects are,ofcourse vastly different,according to the situation]{and ofcourse the colors r not as interesting and the light-headedness is not due to your brain frying,but thts another point}. overall a person in love radiates a beautiful healthy glow...
for awhile atleast...this we shall call stage one.
what happens a bit after,say-a year or two down the line.now the couple have known each other and most of the good and also not so good qualities have played a starring role or atleast made a guest appearance so far in the relationship.
nows the interesting bit:when a person NOW says 'i love u'.the hormonal difference is stark,the way both persons respond to this is different,in fact,mostly all things would be different besides the words.
assuming tht it is true and heartfelt- what is it based on now---my understanding of it is tht without a real base,these four alphabets have nowhere to stand on.
this base tht i speak of are-understanding,trust,and faith.
im not very comfortable with faith,because the way i am going to be using it is not in the same way as is generally used.so im going to use it anyways.
we shall go into each of these in a bit of detail now.

2007-06-29T08:57:00.001+05:30

Such fragrance,

from where...

which tree...

2007-06-29T08:47:00.000+05:30

yesterday,i had to goto the DR to get an injection the size of a samurai sword...now at the best of tmes im bad wit injections.but i've over the years developed a breathin technique which i used quite surprising well y'day. after tht thou i was in pain ,i was fine too.so i walked back home,c...cause it was raining...i walked 10 odd km in the rain,slowly...singing on top of my voice-aint no sunshine when she's gone,powerless,philidelpia,somewhere over the rainbow,songs from the group Cream which i love,beetles.it was so much fun....in other news.traffic in the areas tht i walked through were unusually less.....my arms not hurtin so much today morn.yippie. --------------------------------------------------------------

on rain...

if i was rain , i would go where water cannot be found.

if i were the wind, then i would gently blow love everywhere,

if i were the tree, i would shade those who need shade,

if i were a bird, then i would sing a song to those who need to hear loves music...

if i were a mountain, i would tell all that i grew from the sea...

and if i were a blanket, i would protect u and keep u warm.

but all tht i am is me , so i try and do all these things,

cause u and i r all these things to each other... love to u...joie de vivre...

finding a good councilor

2007-06-23T00:54:00.000+05:30

On finding a Good Councilor...

A councilor is a person who cheers from the sidelines,while the client helps sort him/herself out
--- Eric Fromm.

Councilors are not popular in india,especially cause there is a lot of misconception on what a councilor is in the first place.in this country atleast,you would never mention that u go to a councilor,as people would look down upon u.
So before i tell you on how i think you can go bout finding a good councilor.i would first like to tell you that going to a councilor does NOT mean that you are mad or dys-functional or in any way more in need of help than anyone else.
there r many kinds of councilors,there is the psycho analyst,the behaviorist,the humanist and quite a few others.some use confrontational techniques,others emphatize,some suggest behaviour modification techniques[BMT]-each of these ways work differently with different people and with different needs.
for example-BMT works with a person who wants to give up smoking or drugs more than some of the other techniques.
but the MOST important characteristic of a councilor by far is his/her ability to listen to u without judging u or feeling sorry for u.
a few points tht i think are vital in choosing a councilor and in the counciling process :
its better to go to a councilor through a referral from a known and trusted doctor.DO NOT look in the yellow pages or ask your local chemist where u can find one.remember-its your peace of mind weare talking about here.

although qualifications are not everything,they still hold a great deal of value.the councilors qualifications and working field tells at the very least how qualified a councilor is.this does not necessarily mean that a councilor who is qualified is the right one for u.
when u first call a councilor,keep the message brief-mentioning your name and telephone no and that you would like to have a appointment with him/her.please do not go into details about your problems.if it is a cricis situation,u could mention that u would like a appointment urgently.usually councilors get back within a day.but if a councilor does not call back giving u a appointment within the week,then please call another councilor.

the first session is a very very important as u and the councilor r just getting to know each other.it is very necessary for u to look at your thoughts through the session and afterwards so as to truly find out whether u were comfortable with the councilor,his methods and the settings.

The setting can sometimes be uncomfortable for u,either physically or psychologically.for example-if the councelors office is too close to your neighbourhood,or if the patient coming in next can see u as u leave or if u feel that the coun ciling room is not soundproof enough.all these can play on your mind when u go to the councilor.so please take them into account as well.

all counciling sessions are necessarily CONFIDENTIAL.

the first session is also very important because in this session the councilor gets to begin to know what your problems/issues are.if you find that u are not comfortable revealing yourself to the councilor,it would mean that you do not trust the councilor and that the session and perhaps the whole process with this particular councilor would be a waste. in my own case i went to a councilor who listened to my problems and was most probably feeling as overwhelmed as i was feeling.i constantly felt that in one of the sessions she was going to hug me.now dont get me wrong,i like a hug as much as the next person,but the hug was not going to help me face my problems any better.
you are going to be bringing your problems to the counciling room and make yourself vuluranable in front of the councilor,so u being as comfortable,both physically as well as mentally is very very important for the process to begin and move forward.the very process of revealing is a process of healing,so the utmost care has to be taken.
lastly if u find that the councilor is talking more than u r,and also interrupts u frequently; then be sure that the counciling porcess is not going smoothly.
another thing that should go without saying,but unfortunately needs to be stated anyhow is that by and large the councilor and the client do not have or make any physical contact.sexual contact is a BIG BIG NO.so please do not even consider going into that area.it has nothing to do with counciling(take my word for it{Feuid was right in thinking that lots of things are connected to sex...even councelors and counciling-this is just for ur reading)

choosing a good councilor like choosing a good Doctor is incredibly important because choose the wrong doctor puts your life at risk at the worst and at the very least,you continue with whatever problem you have.
counciling is not a miracle drug which the councilor possesses.the councilor is more a person who by listening carefully helps you,the client,sort out the jumbled-up-ness of your thinking and emotions.
for this to begin,you have to find a councilor whom you can trust(and if u have trust issues...than dont trust yourself in not trusting the councilor,,,hehehe.also do tell the councilor that u have trust issues and do not trust him/her), so as to be frank about your situation.
some councilors are quick to give you advice on what to do(trust me on tht one,i have met a few),and in this they are no different from friends and family members.
so now that u have a few pointers on how to find a good councilor.i wish u the very best in finding a good councilor and in your journey of finding yourself.

How to make a good cuppa tea...

2007-06-23T00:50:00.000+05:30

how to make a GOOD cuppa tea...

yes,yes we all think tht v can make a good cuppa tea.n u may be rite.but this is not just a good cup of tea.its how to make a GOOD cup of tea.which is making the optimum use of the tea leaves,so as to allow the fragrance to entice u to sip it slowly.
u see,a cup of tea is not just something to be made quickly and had strong with a bit of sugar and lots of milk.its something tht would [and should]essentially refresh u,make u feel at peace with urself and with the world at large.a cup of tea is like rain to the flora and fauna,bringing life preserving vitals to the menu.now i know this sounds grand and all the rest,but once u have had a GOOD cup of tea then u would know of what i am talking about.
so here go the basics---to begin this beautiful and yet so simple process u need some tea leaves[hopefully u'll be blessed with some fine full tea leaves,if not some earl grey would do{my favorite is the GOP golden orange pekio also known as Gods Own Pot}] a tea pot,couple of cups,a bit of sugar,some skimmed milk,a strainer and a stove.now i know of a few people who think tht tea should be sipped without any milk and a few others who boil the tea and milk together till all the flavour has been supressed and made submissive-so i say to u ,my friend-ignore the first and stand far far away from the second.
coming back to the tea making-fill a kettle with a cup(or two if there r two of u) + a wee bit extra water,put it on the stove for a boil...and now let it boil,as the water is BOILING(rather than putting the tea in before it boils),add a spoon and a little bit of the tea leaves(or bout three spoons if there r two of u) .now let the tea leaves steep for two to three minutes and there is no need to be impatient.u can inhale the fragrant tea in this time,it will,i promise;refresh u and give u a prelude to heaven.
in a cup{or two}add a bit of milk which has been warmed seperately(and by bit i mean a bit,no more) add the tea filling The Cup full of this life preserving elixer.add a spoon of sugar and stir it gently,and what u have in your company now is a truly splendid cuppa tea.if your feeling a bit exhilarated and over come,go ahead,its perfectly legal.
enjoy...

2006-12-02T09:27:00.000+05:30

Tell me, do tell me
What is love?
Please try, do please do try to tell me somehow
When you say you are near,
When you say someone is dear,
Is it that you state your fear?
I don’t know, I just ask
I am not making a statement
But perhaps to understand it is a task
As few have the strength to do so
People come and people go
But, the question remains.
What is love...

2006-12-02T09:25:00.000+05:30

1Love, the pleasure lingers.
Funny state when the heart palpates
& Skips merrily
The blood rushes around as if in an emergency
The ears hot, the body jelly
And the minds …speak not of it.
It feels very much like a washing machine
Twirling around and around,
With the sound
Coming of age.
Hopefully without any baggage.
& Then the heavens celebrate.
& Then there is………
4 Immense love one does feel
Why? Cause its life
When u realize that u can see, can smell, can sense,
Can care and be cared for …
And can love.
Then my dear one, u realize Ur self and u realize the simplicity of the mystery
Cause there was none

2006-12-01T12:30:00.000+05:30

dream all u might,
dream all u can,
dream of screams and dream of peter pan,

when u reach the land of sleep,
where u cant hear no bell and no beep,
dream a little dream of me...

will i be good, will i be bad ?
will u be happy and will u be glad...
will u wake up at the last hour,

to think - wat a pleasant dream
Ah, to live.. to love ... and to scream...

the beautiful sun, oh beautiful day.
where is my love,is she far away.

i do not know and cannot find her,
but i know tht she rests safely in my heart,
cause i do not bind her.

but is she somewhere outside too ???
Oh, if one only knew.

but one shall wait and one shall find.

what one is looking for...
there is but one of a kind...

2006-12-01T11:55:00.000+05:30

i wish to learn, will u teach me, said the man...

said the zen master- i dont think tht u know how to learn...

then can u teach me how to learn ? ? ?

said the zen master , can u learn how to let me teach u ...

2006-12-01T10:21:00.000+05:30

my first kiss was very very special, full of all the drama of movie's , with all the romance,perfect timing,hero's,heroine's, & even villians, just no dramatic music !!!

17th may, about 8 pm. volleyball court...no,it was the junior football court.
Rimjhim and myself,sitting on slightly damp grass,it quite cool and pleasant.
i think it was a full moon ,or atleast quite close(there were no retakes in this at all...).
in all the silent romance of our holding hands, i hear some noises...quite a lot of noise. Rimjhim heard nothing( suggesting that love may also be deaf in addition to already suffering from acute blindness).

the sounds were produced by a group of very flat footed (some of who had to buy 2 pairs of shoes and then throw away the right shoe of both pairs !!!)
boys who came from a very conservative background (conservative meaning : they wore only shirts,well pressed, black shoes,polished on EVEN the soles(i'm not joking here),
trousers that were in fashion in the late 60's (tht is the 1860's for u...) and hair laced in oil that went by the name - JABAKUSUM & smelt (again no jokes here) like cowdung from a distance of 30 feet, and strangely smelling marginally better as u got closer (beats me how???).

one of the Band of Flat Feet (BFF for short)
had even managed to aquire a beard which any african lion could be proud of (...oh all theis by the tender age of 12)... oh , and by the way they were also ttrying to be quiet(like two hungry teenagers trying to quietly open a chips packet in a cinema thetre...very quiet...).

i sushed Rimjhim so as to make out wat animal was making its way towards us...then found out that it was our very own BFF. they had been following us for months now,trying to expose (lord only knows what...) our relationship. everyone else in school was aware of it.
i guess exposure to them had a whole different meaning.

so Rimjhim and i got up and started to run across the various sports fields, the sub-junior football field,the basket ball court, the volley ball court and the main futball field.the lot of them being called the Top field.

i ran at breakneck speed while i help rimjhim's hand and dragged her along the entire top field.once the BFF realised this ,they too gave chase -finally we got off the top field ; while running down from there, i was wondering where we could hide, cause if we didnt , it would be a long night (and i would also need more paper top write this na...).so we quickly went to rimjhims brothers domentary -the red dorm.

rimjhims brother was a cute 11 year old boy.very chocolaty and sweet.
MOST importantly,he treated my words as the very gospel. i told him ttat we were going to hide on the terrace and that he was not to tell anyone that he has seen us.

And so we were on top of the terrace,under the solar panels, exhausted from our run,excited by our togetherness &"team spirit" (this despite the fact tht i dragged her across much of the top field) {not something a girl has listed as romantic since the Stone Age, where Crugh (a girl) carved on a rock --- Euagrh (ie- a boy) boinked me on the head with granite (black colour) and then dragged me across the granite mines...i think he likes me...Ps :i dont think i will be able to sit for another four weeks. }.

And so, where was i, yes, we were sitting, rather close together, still holding hands & breathing deeply & at the same time trying to keep quiet.
we felt like giggling, a common teenage symptom. i guess we were both looking at the moon (this cause we couldnt see each other with the light being blocked by the solar panel.) ... ... and now comes the blurry bit. the next moment or maybe 5 minutes later: our lips were pressed against each others.
only after this consciousness dawned.
my eyes were probably shut till this point but noe they were wide open.i was astonished at what was i was seeing,which admitadly wasnt much & what i was doing , which ... AHEM !!!

i cannot say who initiated it, much as i have tried to recall. those moments between the two thoughts - ' wow, what a beautiful moon' and 'hey what the heck am i doing.'
are forever buried somewhere deep in my subconscious.

my initial reaction was nearly to gag, but then , my brain was mercifully decomissioned by the union,......... and all else was bliss ! ! !

how long we kissed , or as it may have been , kept our lips on each others. i cannot guess.
perhaps it was 30 mins , perhaps 45. both ways it was a respectable amount of time.

we finally parted without saying a word.i dont remember how i walked back to my dormentary (i didnt even remember it the next day. )
i just awoke from a fantastic sleep the next day.... ... ... and didnt brush my teeth or wash me face... and the whole day i BEAMED .........

.........This was my first Kiss ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

2006-11-30T13:44:00.000+05:30

if i was rain , i would go where water cannot be found.

if i were the wind,

then i would gently blow love everywhere,

if i were the tree,

i would shade those who need shade,

if i were a bird,

then i would sing a song to those who need to hear loves music...

if i were a mountain,

i would tell all that i grew from the sea...

and if i were a blanket,

i would protect u and keep u warm.

but all tht i am is me ,

so i try and do all these things,

cause u and i r all these things to each other...

love to u...joie de vivre...

2006-11-30T13:42:00.000+05:30

millions long for immortality...

who dont know what to do with themselves ...

on a rainy sunday afternoon...

2006-11-30T13:18:00.000+05:30

who r u ,my love...
who has come into my life with light,
who r u whose self is me.
whose mind is mine.
r u me ?

r u a butterfly or an angel?

with feet so soft tht they barely leave a trace,
with breath so sweet, tht flowers open to ur scent.
who r u, whose beauty begins at dawn and whose laughter makes the birgs sing...

... AND ...

Who r u
who makes me search in the darkness for hours...
who dosnt answer when ur angry...
who closes her doors n disappears deep inside...
who r u , who is my greatest love and sometimes the most distant stranger...
who can wake me with a caress and also cut me with a glare.

do u know who u are ???

2006-11-30T13:08:00.000+05:30

what virtues did i possess
n wat vices did he.
whilst he lies on the road in pain and agony...
n i here in glee... crippled blind and shouting for u,
what wrong has he done lord !!!
forgive him PLEASE if u may.

i am well few & clothed and with a roof over my head,
but tht man seems to be lying down seemingly waiting to be dead.

what purpose does tht serve lord ???

a notice...a hope for another Buddha...

or just examples of continuous callousness...

2006-11-30T12:36:00.000+05:30

a day starts wit so much promise...
even when its rainin,
even when its dark.
its still a new beginning.
a night ends wit so much promise.
as its the ending of the old.
and in between the darkness n the light lies thoughts untold.
a child hurt at night,
still wakes up with new vigor,with renewed excitement.
showing us wat it is to really sleep.
to really live for the day.the very moment !
But as v GROW UP, night and day lose their charm.
their excitement...lose...us...
is it that the days r on our shoulders ,
tht v carry too much???
tht life...with so much promise ,now feels like prolonged muck.
tht the love v share wit so preciois few,
is tentative n quite scary.
tht the money v earn by workin even harder
(& v've been promised by parents & society tht v WILL be happier with more of it)

is not really helping us enjoy to be freer,and more at ease.
n now v'r very weary.
Grown up have v?
seen life...
become practical.
So how come it is tht practicality seems to have its bitter SHARP edge...
tht wats termed reality has blinds on.
tht v'r all the emperor...with those fabled clothes on.
Our kingdom - our life insurance,based on death.
insured r u?
v give full refund & 100 % more on death, but do please collect it in person.

listen to ur elders.
they DO know wat it is to FUCK UP..
and will teach it to u.
there is noneed to beware of the devil - there never was.
there never will be.
go for confession, the one stop shop for redemption.
3 sins for 5 virtues -, TODAYS SPECIAL - apologies to god...

did the god tht banished adam n eve from eden,
the god tht didnt like them having knowledge,
the god thtdidnt like the fact tht they had shame or understanding of thieir differences...
tht they somehow obtained fig leaves (bless Canada) to cover themselves.
did this god wear clothes when he told them not to...
haha...nice na?
taught a two faced truth.
taught morals...at least unto others.
taught tht all are the same

have u ever met same ? ever ?

look, im not sayin anything against u or ur beliefs.im not putting u or anyone else down.
im just asking a few interesting questions.cause they interest me.
cause i want to know.
know more than tht which has been taught.
know more than which is seen.
which is said in our politeness.
in our life of learning of how not to slep on toes...even our own.
of eveading all small traps...only to be caught by the big one..
but the thing is - v cant see wats so close.
the hardest thing to see is what is in front of ur face , aa the saying goes.
SO... ... ... what do u see ???

2006-11-30T12:23:00.000+05:30

cachyphony of sounds...

birds waking to a new day...

squirrels bursting with renewed energy...

2006-11-30T12:20:00.000+05:30

a child sits watching-
the big black eyes curious,wide n full of life-
tiny fingers outstreched,reaching out for anything.
a smile permiates,showin tiny white pearls.
the body unstable,but energetic,like a grin.
the grasp of a palm.curiousity grips him like a charm.
its not realised which is wat n whose is which.
there's no difference...&... it dsnt matter.
this remarkably delicate being,helps al around him to b tht.
to touch n gigle wit delite,
to b a child without any plight.
have u ever been this...

2006-11-30T12:14:00.000+05:30

born once,lived once,died once,
how orderly.did u love once as well?
thts a shame thou,
i miss u.seems like i am the only one who does.
tht ur gone is unknown to everyone else.
ur room empty,ur bed empty,
my last relative-my last tie...
food, money,n the pains of many yeaterdays is all u had.
i brought u love,like u did for me, thou in a different way.
u looked after me long after ur fatherhood.
sheltered me,cared for me.came in a rickety bus,even with ur back giving up.
even when u cant bear the cold.i love u all over again.
now ur with amma,my ever compassionate mother,
perhaps u can learn from her what she is all about.
u missed her so so much,but only after she left,
u loved her so so much,but only after she left.
i learnt from u...through negation.that love,care and understanding r the MOST important things in life.
yes,u have money which has helped me also,but money cant buy me love,cant buy me care.
cant buy me a grandfather who came to ooty thru pain and cold,
no...no...not really...it cant.
u taught me tht u had faith in my judgement when no one alse did.
it meant a lot to me,it really did(and it still does.).
even so much that i didnt know it would.
i miss u.miss kissing u on ur forehead,
miss holding ur soft hand & listening to ur stories of banking,of food, of amma,of ur achievements,over &over again.
i love u bapuji.noone else to cal tht again..
.may u move in peace,love&eternal harmony.ur ever loving son/grandson.

poem for my grandfather...

thots...

2006-11-07T13:08:00.001+05:30

somthing i had heard a long time ago has helped me immensely in dealing with both ppl n also with myself.

a friends teacher had once said that when ur doing business,leave ur ego at the door.

i feel this great practical advice can actually b applied to almost anything,esp relationships.

cause i hav noticed from mine own life most disagreements come from a tussle of egos.

not cause one is right n the other isnt.

if instead of us trying to convince the other or/and resist being convinced,

if v put our thoughts of being right n the other wrong,

at the door step for jst a moment then perhaps a converation can begin.

n tht can lead to so many beautiful things...

2006-11-07T13:08:00.000+05:30

somthing i had heard a long time ago has helped me immensely in dealing with both ppl n also with myself.

a friends teacher had once said that when ur doing business,leave ur ego at the door.

i feel this great practical advice can actually b applied to almost anything,esp relationships.

cause i hav noticed from mine own life most disagreements come from a tussle of egos.

not cause one is right n the other isnt.

if instead of us trying to convince the other or/and resist being convinced,

if v put our thoughts of being right n the other wrong,

at the door step for jst a moment then perhaps a converation can begin.

n tht can lead to so many beautiful things...

2006-11-07T13:07:00.000+05:30

now cats done mewing,

bedroom touched by moonlight.

2006-11-07T12:50:00.000+05:30

As you grow older,

Have one b’day after another.

Move away from childhood

Being more social, more acceptable.

Doing less with spontaneity and less with curiosity.

Dip your hand into cream

Go out and play in the rain

Have a bubble bath

Sing aloudDance without inhibition

See things in a way U’ve forgotten

Let go of this great grip

Of all those layers of Ravana

Don’t [pardon me] pretend

How does it feel???

Authentic…real, perhaps even serene.

Growth is contagious, life is contagious

Trust yourself and reach out.

Believe …

...cause it is true!

2006-11-07T12:48:00.000+05:30

love
distance no matter
between hearts...

haiku...

2006-11-07T12:40:00.000+05:30

Rain drops
in my teacup
sweetning my tea...

2006-11-07T12:31:00.000+05:30

The heavens opened
And there was rain
It covered the earth
And eased all pain
It came down in sheets
You could see the trees bend down under the weight of it.
You could hear the melodious beats
And see the frogs coming from nowhere.
Large and small
Those with long legs make prodigious leaps with the greatest ease.
Looking at them, it was hard not to be pleased
You looked down to keep the rain out of your eyes
The heavy water was painful on your scalp
You would soon have to go in
A pale lily, with a bright golden heart
Was being torn by the force of the rain
It couldn’t stand much more of the beating
It didn’t stand much more of the pain
And it came beating down
Boom, boom, boom
The constant beat deafening
The dark sky as far as u could see
No sun up high, and no relief
The leaves of the banana plants were being torn to shreds
The flowers were being knocked off
They were all but dead&It still went on raining as furiously as ever
The delicate jasmines were on the ground,&They were quickly becoming the color of the earth
In death they still had their perfume, but only when u came near them
But now u could feel that the noise was slowly coming to an end
Already it was raining less heavily and u could now hear the frogs croaking melodiously
Other sounds too became audible-voices calling, trees shivering
Everything was becoming normal again

U were of the earth, the sky, and of the mountain…
& U were washed clean!!!

unleashed freedom

:)

grossglockner or crazy climb ahoy

mental climb

MAIRANDI

Sick room

joy's joy...

kindness

confu...si...o...u...and us :)

Pacman's new home

i'm just a shadow of what i used to be.

How many of these fears are holding you back?

~~~~of joy.....

To walk in peace.

to let go...

blooming of the flower

based on what i feel i need in my life :)

interesting questions to ask...

monty python :)

~~~U R LOVED...WHY...CAUSE U R WORTH IT~~~

turbulence in the sky...

on hungry lions and being handsome :)

Rumi

Jalal ad-Din Rumi

about a girl...who jumps in joy

pictures of joy :)

4 core relationship values.

Tea time in school...

random stories of BMS :) the fart~~~

surreal is the only real ;)

royston...

bms stories.[ stories of my school and the joy it shared with so many of us :) ] blue mountain school :)

ten questions...

ikiru - to be ... :):):)

quiet raindrops...

whispered fragrance's...

bapuji

:)

the dark side...

on the bus...

on champions or so they r called

of hendrix and a nice way to sleep...

A GREAT PLEASURE...

rain,rain...

Drum battle

dennis chambers - loud jazz

how much should u exercise???

so what kind of exercise burns fat...

beat excuses...

when...

why women should do weight training...

how to overcome lower back pain!!!

Thelonious Monk In Berlin 1973

Miles Davis - Human Nature

Jack Dejohnette - Conception of Frases

Art Blakey's Jazz Mssengers - Moanin' (1/2)

THELONIOUS MONK QUARTET - 'ROUND MIDNIGHT

John Coltrane Quartet - My Favorite Things

John Coltrane -' My Favourite Things'

Charles Lloyd and Billy Higgins

Ginger Baker-the cream reunion-2005

Eloy Casagrande - Modern Drummer Festival Weekend 2005

The Cream, White Room

on the being of love...

finding a good councilor

How to make a good cuppa tea...

thots...

haiku...

~U R LOVED...WHY...CAUSE U R WORTH IT~